Confrustration

   It's been a while.

   So I'm living the summer life, and right now I'm on a bed and I can't sleep for unknown reasons. I'm not sure if typing  about all this is going to help me sleep or not, but I'm going to take a shot.

   I am currently waiting for the next school year since, after all, the blocks (or sections) will be shuffled, and I will have to meet new people, again. I'm not going to complain about change; I've done enough of that. I'm actually looking forward to the shuffle. Though I'm not exactly bugged about it, it's just..."Parting is such sweet sorrow" and all that.

   That said, I don't really get what's bugging me. Sure I'm gonna lose my comfort zone and all my recent friends, I'm  over that, but there's this certain itch in my head that I can't seem to shake off. Unfinished business. I don't know what it is.

   Digressing, I have some epiphanies. One of them concerns the pains of the human mind. I realized that every heartbreak remains with  you until you die, you just grow numb to the pain, so every time you "remember" the pain, you feel it. Secondly, the adult mind. We're all just children in the mind. Our needs just grow along with the body. The needs become more sophisticated, or there are simply more needs than before. The moment you grow up is when you let go of the needs and tend to the needs of others, or in this case, the needs of the children. When you're old enough, BAM, you're the kid again. You get tired of being the grown up and you're back to your own desires. Only difference is you're older.

   I have no idea where this post is heading. I feel like I'm confused, bored, and sad at the same time. I don't think anything I do will even work or change that. I just want to kill time so bad, like take a month-long nap. Hibernate. Sleep. Get lost. I have no idea, but  I can't do any of those. I can't  even sleep.  Wtf are the problems, I don't know, so I can't solve them. I have time. I just don't know where to even start.